And we begin from the end of time to go back to when the universe was born. What do we find? Billy found imagination and insanity. He walked across the big bang and went a little deaf. Now he needed a place which was a little more silent than that so he chose to come down to the sun. Soon he burnt down and become a big brown spot on the face of the sun.
Today i had an english communication exam. It was to be written and so I did. What I wrote you shall not want to know because no matter how confusing I sound it will remain a fact that the sleep is more intoxicating than confusion.
i remember just one sentence from the hundreds that I jot down- The sun does not set into the horizon.
Happiness is being content it is your decision whether you understand it or not. Communicate with the person that you hide inside. Befriend yourself.
22.12.06
5.12.06
news
So i finally gounf time to blog. I didn't manage to complete my old assignments. 5% remains but, i really don't think i am going to be doing any of it.
Just got out of the thermacol workshop. We had to make a spere/cube, design a tile and make a twisted object. you can see the pictures below. before thermacol my group did the MDF and wire workshop. MDF wasn't very great but wire was lots of fun. I completed my wire asignments in one day although we had 3 and a half days to do it.
I am seldom nostalgic instead i find new ways of making things better in my life now. when i am out and think of home, surprisngly the hostel room and bed come into my mind.
The only person who can make a place home for me is my mum.
dad's coming down soon. he'll probably drop by to see where i live and study.
i miss my long hair!
Just got out of the thermacol workshop. We had to make a spere/cube, design a tile and make a twisted object. you can see the pictures below. before thermacol my group did the MDF and wire workshop. MDF wasn't very great but wire was lots of fun. I completed my wire asignments in one day although we had 3 and a half days to do it.
I am seldom nostalgic instead i find new ways of making things better in my life now. when i am out and think of home, surprisngly the hostel room and bed come into my mind.
The only person who can make a place home for me is my mum.
dad's coming down soon. he'll probably drop by to see where i live and study.
i miss my long hair!
17.11.06
party at lush!
me in black in the front from left, priya in red, krrish in blue, prateek in sweaty shirt, kritika in purple, goofy in white, roshni in black (right), monty behind kritika and yes the moneky type of a guy ruining the picture by trying to climb a chair behind all of us is raunak!
ILLUSTRATION NOW!
is an amazing publish by Ed. Julius Wiedemann. I’m going to have a week with that book and I bet you I will be licking that book by Thursday. It’s a delicious read. Most amazing illustrators I have come across in that book until now are
• Paula Sanz Caballero – www.paulasanzcaballero.iespano.es
She uses needle and fabric to illustrate and her work is Fabulous!
• Margot mace – when you see here work you will go ‘oooooooh’ you’ll find her on www.illustrissimo.com
I have been meandering over my life in college. It’s so interesting and there’s just so much to do and I’m so awed by the possibilities of what all I can do that I just can’t do anything. That is a very long sentence but it explains my agony. My struggle against lethargy can be a subject for scholars.
Art and design is what I have wanted all my life and now that I finally have it why am I not making anything out of it? Why am I taking it all for granted? Don’t I know how much it took me to get here? God, we need to work together. Let’s get my energy and passion back. Let me not drown into the pool of boredom and joblessness. Let me strive and work hard for what I need most – the freedom of mind and expression, the path to self-realisation, an end which when reached shall make me respect my history of struggle.
Let me not become someone who I don’t want to be. Let’s begin today. Let’s make things like I’ve wanted them to be.
Oki Doki.
• Paula Sanz Caballero – www.paulasanzcaballero.iespano.es
She uses needle and fabric to illustrate and her work is Fabulous!
• Margot mace – when you see here work you will go ‘oooooooh’ you’ll find her on www.illustrissimo.com
I have been meandering over my life in college. It’s so interesting and there’s just so much to do and I’m so awed by the possibilities of what all I can do that I just can’t do anything. That is a very long sentence but it explains my agony. My struggle against lethargy can be a subject for scholars.
Art and design is what I have wanted all my life and now that I finally have it why am I not making anything out of it? Why am I taking it all for granted? Don’t I know how much it took me to get here? God, we need to work together. Let’s get my energy and passion back. Let me not drown into the pool of boredom and joblessness. Let me strive and work hard for what I need most – the freedom of mind and expression, the path to self-realisation, an end which when reached shall make me respect my history of struggle.
Let me not become someone who I don’t want to be. Let’s begin today. Let’s make things like I’ve wanted them to be.
Oki Doki.
16.11.06
finally!
okay world! I'm back! Bhaiya got me a laptop and right now i am in my university with wifi connectivity!
I'm realy excited about the fact that i am connected.
Well, maybe a bit too excited to write anymore so cya all laterrr..
I'm realy excited about the fact that i am connected.
Well, maybe a bit too excited to write anymore so cya all laterrr..
5.11.06
rambling
I just returned from apa's house. She had made chops for dinner. Before that I had accompanied Sammy and Esa to his doctor. Even before that I was at the endurance karting race of bhaiya's wherein his team stood second. Earlier I was at home on this very chair trying to finish the silly assignment.
I had planned to go to school to meet my teachers but I think I'll meet them on my next trip here. Wonder how things will be then. So, my flight is on the 7th of this month. That's precisely two days away since I'm flying at one a.m.
I had planned to go to school to meet my teachers but I think I'll meet them on my next trip here. Wonder how things will be then. So, my flight is on the 7th of this month. That's precisely two days away since I'm flying at one a.m.
3.11.06
1.11.06
things of matter
There are some things in life that you must never take for granted. These few things are listed below. You may add more according to your life cycle.
Your very own paint brush: Now a paint brush is the instrument of my life, for a writer it may be a pencil for a carpenter it may be a saw etc. Always look after your paint brush with the most love and care. Clean it and wipe it after every session, restore its bristles to shape. This is one thing that will earn you self-satisfaction.
Your own name: When we are younger we hate our name; the way it sounds; the way in which it is written. But, the sooner we realize that this name is our identity in the world the better. Your name is the only thing in the whole world that you respond to as a reflex. If you learn to respect it; you learn self-respect.
Your body: Respect your body; it is your only possession. Things may come and go; you may rule over masses and then be thrown over but there’s one thing you can rule forever; your actions. Your body is the only thing that can earn you bread at the end of the day. It is your most expensive possession; so use it wisely.
Goodbye World
Once again I start afresh. Once again I have been reminded by life that I cannot socialize with any other human. So I get back to my normal routine of doing my assignments, being immersed in books, stammering when I have to speak in public and laughing at my own jokes.
Also, my goals revert to wanting to be the best at what I do, being unsocial, rude and drowning in the shower.
My life cycle is at its end, I'm going back into the box and I shall come return again. So, Goodbye world!
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Also, my goals revert to wanting to be the best at what I do, being unsocial, rude and drowning in the shower.
My life cycle is at its end, I'm going back into the box and I shall come return again. So, Goodbye world!
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28.10.06
post problem?
Looks like people are having trouble posting into blogger today. I guess I am missing out on a lot 'coz I'm not one of those special people! How partial is that??
27.10.06
IMPORTANT NOTICE
Either everyone is dead or is planning something against me. I had been away for quite sometime. There were a few blogs that I used to keep track of when I was living here. I just visited their blogs and they haven't posted since I've been gone.
One of my friends in India has a great blog since I've come to Dubai for vacations he hasn't posted even once.
Blogging is a very tough thing to do in the long run. It's very similar to the empty promises of writing in a diary everyday. I think that it is very important for all readers to keep their writers going and the only way to do that is giving feedback.
One of my friends in India has a great blog since I've come to Dubai for vacations he hasn't posted even once.
Blogging is a very tough thing to do in the long run. It's very similar to the empty promises of writing in a diary everyday. I think that it is very important for all readers to keep their writers going and the only way to do that is giving feedback.
Readers, LEAVE COMMENTS -
Pretentious
I went shopping yesterday in one of the famous malls of Dubai know as Mall of the Emirates. People also affectionately like to call it moe. I observed and understood that this world only and only favors right-handed and skinny and white people. We understand that this world is dominated by right-handed persons but how will you justify skinny and white?
I walked into very posh stores which have reasonably priced designer outfits. Not to mention that what will fit into my budget (a dhs.30 t-shirt) will be of the worst quality and de-shape in one single wash. So I picked up a t-shirt for dhs.44 and went to try it on. It is a fact that i have put on a lot of weight and my tummy flaunts it. In the trial room I get frustrated looking at how un-shapely the garment looks. All my rising hopes die like burning paper.
All clothes in such shops are meant for skinny people. Half the world's is over-weight and 90% of the rest half can't afford these clothes, so who exactly is the market favoring? And hey, wait up...the ten percent that's left- most of them include very rich people who won't even look at these shops twice while walking past. Now let's get the ball rolling...
The people who walk in may be suffering from a form of masochism. This behavior could be spotted coming from a fat woman or slightly over weight girl buy skinny clothes thinking that in the near future she shall compel herself to fit into those clothes. But, sadly these clothes only taunt her everyday as they stare at her from the cupboard space and remind her everyday of how ugly she is because she can't fit into them.
Now we come to the 'white' problem. I strolled into another shop with my (forever amazing body) sister and (awesome legs) sister-in-law. Here I didn't care to look at the clothes because I was sure about them laughing at me. I found make-up. Now, make-up isn't as bad as skinny clothes. At least every woman on the planet can use make-up no matter how fat or dark she is.
This is not a white country. It is fairish-brown country. The shop I was in does not specialize in make up but they had something to offer. I saw this tempting set of eye make up which was known as the 'gypsy colors'. My sister-in-law stood beside me and tried on one of the shades. It was hardly showing on her skin and she walked off from the make up booth saying that the shades are for 'very fair' skin.
So I conclude... saying nothing else but one thing, the people in this world are very pretentious.
I walked into very posh stores which have reasonably priced designer outfits. Not to mention that what will fit into my budget (a dhs.30 t-shirt) will be of the worst quality and de-shape in one single wash. So I picked up a t-shirt for dhs.44 and went to try it on. It is a fact that i have put on a lot of weight and my tummy flaunts it. In the trial room I get frustrated looking at how un-shapely the garment looks. All my rising hopes die like burning paper.
All clothes in such shops are meant for skinny people. Half the world's is over-weight and 90% of the rest half can't afford these clothes, so who exactly is the market favoring? And hey, wait up...the ten percent that's left- most of them include very rich people who won't even look at these shops twice while walking past. Now let's get the ball rolling...
The people who walk in may be suffering from a form of masochism. This behavior could be spotted coming from a fat woman or slightly over weight girl buy skinny clothes thinking that in the near future she shall compel herself to fit into those clothes. But, sadly these clothes only taunt her everyday as they stare at her from the cupboard space and remind her everyday of how ugly she is because she can't fit into them.
Now we come to the 'white' problem. I strolled into another shop with my (forever amazing body) sister and (awesome legs) sister-in-law. Here I didn't care to look at the clothes because I was sure about them laughing at me. I found make-up. Now, make-up isn't as bad as skinny clothes. At least every woman on the planet can use make-up no matter how fat or dark she is.
This is not a white country. It is fairish-brown country. The shop I was in does not specialize in make up but they had something to offer. I saw this tempting set of eye make up which was known as the 'gypsy colors'. My sister-in-law stood beside me and tried on one of the shades. It was hardly showing on her skin and she walked off from the make up booth saying that the shades are for 'very fair' skin.
So I conclude... saying nothing else but one thing, the people in this world are very pretentious.
26.10.06
18 till i die
I'm nineteen now though. but, EIGHTEEN TILL I DIE! gonna be eighteen till i die!
Bryan Adams. Simple man, simple songs, sexy voice. Bryan Adams. I'm not a fan of his nor his songs, his music is light and is therefore great to listen to when I'm at work.
Let's run the calender, there are TEN days till i leave home again. In those ten days I have promised myself to go to the beach everyday to wet my feet, alone or with roshni or maybe ankit.
Been sleeping like a log. It's pretty bad 'coz my boday hurts and is stiff in the worst of places like the neck, for example.
A silly idea just struck my mind. I'm going to look for design places where they will take people for internship in India. Can't be sure whether I will get a laptop or not so I have to do my research here.
I feel like changing my template. It is RED and BLACK now.
Bryan Adams. Simple man, simple songs, sexy voice. Bryan Adams. I'm not a fan of his nor his songs, his music is light and is therefore great to listen to when I'm at work.
Let's run the calender, there are TEN days till i leave home again. In those ten days I have promised myself to go to the beach everyday to wet my feet, alone or with roshni or maybe ankit.
Been sleeping like a log. It's pretty bad 'coz my boday hurts and is stiff in the worst of places like the neck, for example.
A silly idea just struck my mind. I'm going to look for design places where they will take people for internship in India. Can't be sure whether I will get a laptop or not so I have to do my research here.
I feel like changing my template. It is RED and BLACK now.
24.10.06
Re-expiditions of Dubaiworld
So I sleep at five and open my eyes at around ten to find Aisha smiling at me. It was like this romantic Hindi film moment. At first, her image was a little blur and then she comes into focus, wearing a pretty Eid outfit and looking pretty by herself. I thought I woke up into the wrong world, so I closed my eyes and opened them again after, maybe, five minutes. Nothing had changed, she was still sitting there with that smile. I was thinking ‘Shit, am I turning into a lesbian because I seem to be dreaming sweet stuff about Aisha!’
We got out of the house. Slid into Ankit’s car and so my Re-expeditions into the Dubaiworld began. The trip goes like this:
Jumana’s place
Begged her mom to let her go. It took us 45 minutes!
The tyre:
Mid-way Ankit realized that the car that he had brought along had problems with the tyres. (does the previous sentence make sense?) So we head back to his place and got into his car.
Dominos:
I voted for Dominos lunch and I was the only one voting. The place turned out to be a disappointment.
Beach:
Felt very elated. Opened my hair and shook my head around like a maniac. But it felt amazing. Free. Freedom. Made the rest of them do the same. Found little pink shells and gave one to each.
Headed back home. In the car I spoke to Ankit about things that I never had; about life and living.
We got out of the house. Slid into Ankit’s car and so my Re-expeditions into the Dubaiworld began. The trip goes like this:
Jumana’s place
Begged her mom to let her go. It took us 45 minutes!
The tyre:
Mid-way Ankit realized that the car that he had brought along had problems with the tyres. (does the previous sentence make sense?) So we head back to his place and got into his car.
Dominos:
I voted for Dominos lunch and I was the only one voting. The place turned out to be a disappointment.
Beach:
Felt very elated. Opened my hair and shook my head around like a maniac. But it felt amazing. Free. Freedom. Made the rest of them do the same. Found little pink shells and gave one to each.
Headed back home. In the car I spoke to Ankit about things that I never had; about life and living.
Eid Day adventures
So Eid went well. Bhaiya finally asked me what I wanted as a birthday present. The only thing I want or otherwise need is a Laptop. Dad actually did a research on which laptop I should get while I was away. Funny. He was actually preparing himself into buying it for me. I completely flipped at that. I don't what gets into him sometimes.
Later yesterday I hung out with Ankit. We went around looking for speakers for my iriver. Music is an important thing when you live in a hostel and study design. We didn't buy them, though. Had ice cream later and he dropped me home.
Nedi and Sammy had bought tickets for 1:15am show of Don. They gave me a little surprise when i came home about the show.
I was way sleepy before the movie. I fell asleep for like 10 mins before we left.
The movie was great entertainment. Actually!
Later yesterday I hung out with Ankit. We went around looking for speakers for my iriver. Music is an important thing when you live in a hostel and study design. We didn't buy them, though. Had ice cream later and he dropped me home.
Nedi and Sammy had bought tickets for 1:15am show of Don. They gave me a little surprise when i came home about the show.
I was way sleepy before the movie. I fell asleep for like 10 mins before we left.
The movie was great entertainment. Actually!
22.10.06
Suddenly
sat-oct-21-12:40am
Suddenly I am safe
Suddenly I can take
Suddenly it's all gone
Suddenly heart is strong
Suddenly eyes are wide
Suddenly we all slide
Suddenly life goes numb
Suddenly she goes dumb
Suddenly I feel blind
Suddenly on my mind
Suddenly that is sharp
Suddenly it grows dark
Suddenly I am here
Suddenly it's nowhere
Suddenly screams are loud
Suddenly all in doubt
Suddenly I feel real
Suddenly I am safe
Suddenly I can take
Suddenly it's all gone
Suddenly heart is strong
Suddenly eyes are wide
Suddenly we all slide
Suddenly life goes numb
Suddenly she goes dumb
Suddenly I feel blind
Suddenly on my mind
Suddenly that is sharp
Suddenly it grows dark
Suddenly I am here
Suddenly it's nowhere
Suddenly screams are loud
Suddenly all in doubt
Suddenly I feel real
My left leg is still feeling a little stiff. Hope I haven't screwed up something in my body by sitting here for such long hours after 4 months. It was feeling numb in my sleep. Maybe I could do with a little walk, but not today because I'm already hungry and there are more than three hours to go till Iftar. I don't want to make excersize plans before I fill my tummy so let's just leave it to that.
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